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| Entranced with one soul, sole,
solar system, like
a pistol at my brain,
main - man ,
stand next
to me,
leek on
to me,
fall to heaps of
clo sure...
dripping from my fin ger...
tips,
lips,
collide,
side. by. side.
for here - we are,
past mars,
and venus
they cannot see us
have not seen us
will not be us.
higher than stars,
we share
this spacial air,
unbalanced
but contained
our emotions drain
out
through the spout
of my
heart because I heart making heart.
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| Rolling tides may wash away my past and carry these former thoughts out to sea, but they shall never fully disappear. With time may they fade, but my memories are etched in stone; I cannot see the difference between optimism and realism, where this fine line lays between the present and the future. I ask myself daily, what can I do to self-improve? How can I move on? But the only honest answer I can feed myself is the pure and honest fact that who I am can not be changed, but maybe morphed into something more intelligent, more beautiful, more prepared. From now on, I will not try and hide or run from my fears, but embrace truth, and realize what fiction had in stored for me. I will never shade myself from the reality in life, but I will begin to write my own novel. I will be what I am, regardless of how jaded or improper it may be. I will wear my emotions on my sleeve, right next to my heart, and I shall do so with ease. I will furthermore accept myself, and give up on these ideas of change. Our leaders say change is for the better, but our elders know change is what will ruin us all.
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| You only have so many roles one can play or be at the same time. In life, situations are thrown at you in pure randomization. The way you react labels you, gives you a role, and determines who you are. Sometimes that role is only temporary, but other times it becomes a part of your character. In many situations I play various roles; I take my situations and handle each one differently. Like an actor, I camouflage my skills into each circumstance - I tend to every one individually and never let it intertwine with the others. I used to feel "two-faced", though.
Sometimes you have to be in touch with your inner self, before you can be in touch with reality.
And maybe, just maybe, that was my problem.
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| I was in bed, all curled up and wrapped in blankets when this commercial or program came on television and I heard an excerpt from the man speaking. His monologue went something like, "...to give is to receive. It is like throwing a baseball into the air, - what goes up must come down..." Now, I was totally inspired after hearing that! Mainly because I am a major believer in 'Karma'. What I give IS what I get.
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| At one point in time I had mild respect for the human race, but as time passed, and I continued to come across various experiences that lessened my admiration. Human beings are not nearly as intriguing as they appear; their complexity evolves over time and it's up to each individual to expand their imagination and press their mental and psychological boundaries. I have given my peers the chance to impress me, and, let's say about 90%, have completely and utterly failed. It's absolutely mind-boggling how everyone has all the potential in the world, but they fail to take advantage of it! As said before, the human mind has no limits, nor is it bound to simple restrictions. On the contrary, it is a part of you, as a living, breathing organism, you should take a moment and try to connect with your inner being, your mind, your brain, and your thoughts.
One person has me quite enthralled. I am mesmerized with their thought-processes and the beauty that lies beneath their skin. No names will be mentioned, my goal in typing this is not to give someone credit and boast about my relationship with someone so intelligent, but more so to enlighten you about this man who is completely original in every single way possible. He is a sole being, but so much more than just a body with organs lying inside him. His dreams and beliefs drive me crazy. His philosophies often keep me questioning my own! I can honestly say I will never in my life time find someone who can even compare to this fucking amazing man. The male population needs to up their game, that's for sure.
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